A Year of Reflection and negativity Part 1 - (2023 Year in review)
Well this was coming to its knees, this year has been nothing short of negativity on my end with bad events (for some that say good) mistakes made, and this was going to be one heck of a ride of stress, shakes. The music video for this is is below:
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January:
So this is where we begin another year which this was going to be some times ahead which I will not be prepared for, Even on the 1st day which was me solid video editing while parents went over to see, but instead it was going to hear the start of the time when it would soon be too much for them to handle and the nasty terms of going to the home. But this was also the weekend to get some errands and time to clean up the Christmas parts. Especially as soon the bike was going to be a key part of the second half of this year.
The toasted sandwiches always stay the same over time
Christmas bits to pack down
Bearings and cranks were going to be the part we will talk about
The views from the road in the start of the year as things start to get lighter
But this was also the time of Feeding somebody substantial at the time which she was friends with a gold digger or could be potential piece of work but she was always popular in the times of the feabs back then, some shitposts here and there. But like anything, times will always change. Especially as soon it would be the proper introduction of another character in life with G.
This doesn't get to that part yet, we still get to the part of work just goes back to what it is, work with longer nights to run on and luckily they were not as bad with it an the skechers were proving to be the very useful assets on the distances.
The bus at night before a run home
Lifts to see nan with mum
This was to the point and well it was talking to G after this was even a shop at Lidl before. The way she gets high is cute as fuck sometimes and it was not too long before things would be talking more.
The way it goes for another run
But like I said back then, it could end up being the chance to make something new but I was going to realise a hell of a lot more, it was the same mistakes with different people to come to pass. But also it was nice to have the first takeout of the new year, which actually as time goes on would be less and less of them.
The £35.10 chinese of the new year
Well this past week feels like nothing changed, same techniques just different ladies and of course work all in-between and I'll be pretty quiet this month after a video in next few days of #NewYearResolution
There was one girl that was close to the exception of the rule but sadly months to pass with the final time she disappeared which was the end of that chapter , it really was going to be a sign of northern girls are mostly the more legit nicest compared to local. But then it was coming to the first weekend of the year after New year celebrations or more the start of the end of an era in a way I was not expecting but also not completely shocked at when the events were going to unfold. Chores like the bike clean and the shoes to clean were a must.
The bike cleaned
The Skechers cleaned
As more chats were to be conceived, it was also time to head about the Rise and soon to be fall of virgin having spacecraft in the UK, with the Launcher One rocket, That was after a no so much of a visit day but even with the views, its a shame that the rocket failed to later bankrupt the Orbit side of virgin.
The view of Caradon Hill in the fog with the attempt to see the Virgin Orbit
A view of Callington
Getting home to a toasted syrup sandwich
But then it leads to the start of the next week, since work was going to soon be in full swing including what feels like baby sitting but including food and lunch to get for him an he gets for me since it was a fair game and really work was going to get less productive for a fair bit of months. But the lucky sign was I did not actually get to worry about missing the bus this time, those moments will come later on.
But I was suggested to try Garlic Alloli so that was on my shopping list.
Waiting for a bus
Lunch on co op as it goes
But it was 12 days in and it was soon time to continue running home from work which would soon become my next commute. Which getting home was to continue on the safe path for the most part really. Eventually this was going to do mesome good and prepare me for a lot of distance.
Another run in the dark
This was also talking to someone lovely too I got on with and fed last year and we continued with some Fe gossip which was good to enjoy and voice notes from her is something nice to enjoy. But we bond in various topics.
Walking Rosie,
As it was more in-between with G and also getting the accounts cained up before the deadline of 2 weeks form then, it just felt like a blur in some ways too. Especially as the weekend was coming up like as normal in this case. Plus with another visit to nan which Little did i know it was going to be the last of memories in that place and a guilt was to come across in the months to come. Sure G was high and debating about gaining and a few days before was a skype to someone while her boyfriend was asleep, it beats having to look way while coke was snorted like the year before. But also Sunday was time to email a therapist to get my anxiety under control, especially with non stop talk about the fucking wedding in the weeks to come, it was cause massive shakes.
The walking with Rosie on the sunday morning
Emails to send after Sunday evening
As work was coming back to form, it was getting a message from someone in the past, which ended up having to be the same mistakes made, But instead I said no for that an continued on with life. Since G was enjoying her high time and all that too, which was eventually leading to going on snap to hear her accent but months away before that.
We then deal with the fun time of a run home, from clear sky one minute, then i finish 2 hours later to a FUCKING BLIZZARD and this was where I slipped on the road about twice since it was dark but still its practice is for getting over between road and path, with also the start of dealing with the main road, which passes the horn of plenty from that shortcut.
The Horn of plenty was going to be routine
This was the start of the winter season which comes over, with the slipping on the road was going to be happening over and over, but still its life, but winter in the dry does have that nice look to it. This was also the first and of 3 times this year.
The snow and the station
The leftover maccies from the work friend.
Then it was more quieter from the part but mins a few chats from G and a princess who has a lovely shape to her, it was feeling like it was just mind piddle and the work at bay, but it was also that crunch time with the accounts sorted in that time frame. Plus it was still dark when walking Rosie in the evenings while parents had to see nan and grandad.
The views from the walking Rosie
But it was as it feels like, the long wait of the dark month was nigh, this was also time for getting the shop to start to go on Facebook marketplace to get a bookshelf, from the busy part of the year before. But it was also to the point of long days in the shop to catch up. Especially when it was to chat about a missing brother later on in the weekend too. Though it was also time to get into Facebook dating as one of my customers told me about it. I got my first match.
Some goodies to bring back from work.
The clearing of the shop shelf before moving things about
Going up the hill as the norm after work
The sacktruck at the bus stop which actually I got a lift in that day
The new bookcase picked up and fitted in
Which then it lead to another diamond to actually know I'm good to haul down some chairs as well which even months later are still there and comparing this shot, the games are full and there was more filler to go in for the middle. But it works out and feels like a staple of the shop now, but that hard work was going to feel like a pay off with a last years treat was about to happen with a buffet and also a first introduction to feeding a peach. So that was with Krispy Kreme.
But we first go to the meal of a carvery called the Honeycombe, which actually is a short walk from home but we drove instead, but this is actually called Honicombe and there is a deal of a Dip and Dine which is a Swim then access to the carvery. But this was my first carvery of about 3 this year and it was a nice one, then a walk around the complex.
The Carvery at Honicombe
A look at the pond nearby
But that lead to more chatter and even sapping a girl called belle which never actually replied back to me at that time too. But it was also one of those family days to catch up with and little did i Know soon it would not be able to have them next month since it was the time and start of hard choices to be made.
We instead go back to work with another visit to the grandparents too on the Monday and it was feeling tough and it was the first messages with a Scottish name too shortly on this week, but time changes and people disappears, but work was getting to be busy and so the legs were going to be pushed to their limit with distances and that includes getting to work as well as from work. But the sky was starting to open up in terms of the dark was getting lighter in the evenings too. Plus the messages from a mobish was temporary but a long reply is better than no reply.
The selfie waiting for a bus
Selfie in the shop on a morning
A selfie on the the way into work
More selfie when walking Rose after getting home from work
Pretzels at the time were not too bad
The 1st of a few run ins to work
This then was a weekend of the shop to clear out and documents to organise forms on it, which was nice timing while watching the avengers anime that was on my Sisters shared Disney plus account. But sometimes it just hells to cope with the final few days of the month, which It was the quieter of the months.
Paperwork to organise
A selfie before the day
A look at the cars zooming past in the night sky on the final day of the month
Then it leads to February which this was the start of the busy month for work which was going to be a repeat of last year but this was also to hear the start of the end for a part of my life in one way.
February:
We start off February as we end, with what we begin which was actually another day of running back home after work and also the time to type up a summary post of the year so far., Which nearly took 1 month as it was too. It was the season of late night microwaved or instant meal dishes in bowls to start with too. Plus Co-op still being cop op had some reduced bargains here an there to pickup o the way home or via the community food fridge.
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The first lunch of the month
The mixed bowl pasta meal with a chocolate
The start to continue the blogpost
Another run home
Reduced from the Co-op
And more bits to grab too
The cous cous bowl meal
Which it was also leading to the introduction of a new character in my love life which started off to be legit and in the months to come shows the true colours of repeating the same problems. But for now it was time to just go through this. Visits were a lot less to deal with so it means I could get more buses home. Because soon it was going to be a first day off to catch up on my own life. But then it was the only Sunday off I was soon going to sort things out with a first review of the year, but this was also the consequence of the the Bike starting to show its last signs of failing on me. But the Bike mount for the phone was a good sign to finally catch up on what was needed.
The Bike holder in its box
The Phone in the holder itself
As i did the review, it turns out that the crank was starting to struggle, with that little slip going to be the start of struggles in the weeks to come of that bike.
The View from home
Then it was time to deal with this, the bike slipped as I got past Newbridge on Monday, Which stressed me to fuck especially as it was coming to the pedal slipping off, So having to walk back up the hill to then sort the pedal out, which was not going to be the first time the regulars had to be cancelled due to the bike, which luckily an afternoon visit was going to be a bit more of a easy part from the move but still it was going to be a chance to explore the local woods to get to customers, with this meaning to run in the woods.
The Woods getting darker
The view of night with the blue sky while I got a text from a customer
But then it was to continue my time, the weather was picking up so the distanced was feeling a bit easy to get into. But instead it was leading to the first time to be able to have more interaction with G and leading to more feeding of course but that was in-between the run to home, even with the trip to lidl and the first run on the Crowndale road home. This was on another night of grandparents having bits happen
The view at the top of the hill after the crowndale woods, plus it was also the time to check on
Looking back at Tavi from the Corner near gulworthy crossroads, especially after having to drop cables off to a friends after a visit due to typical things of forgetfulness
The walk up the hill in the rain after the bus had finished to drop me off
Then it was finally time to get the pedal sorted out on the bike which was falling off from the Monday and needing to make sure it works out for the next Monday, it was coming to the first week of a fireplace fitted up, which makes it even more of a sensical whim.
The pedal being fitted on
The new fireplace
Which with this, its another weekend approaching and it was going to be another one to try to sort the bike out, since the pedal troubles were getting out of hand at that point, Since it was Also good weather and the time for that meant good views but it was also looking at the sky and realising that sure weather was picking up but this was going to be some tough times and talks ahead.
A Selfie on kit hill in the wind
The views from walking Rosie in the dusk.
This was a bit of a lull but it makes it feel like things are just to continue long days, it was also the introduction at this point. Chats on F were low but it was moving to snap and even soon to be the key of dealing with a new midlands girl who turns out it was a beauty therapist which was nice at first but it was going to end up going the one sided. Plus it was the first time to go to lydford from Guni and it was going to be a plan to end up doing very regular in the times ahead.
The views on the way home in dusk
The planned route
But that worked out fine and work was getting to know customers better for that most part was good to push the bike to the limits, especially as the pedal was working without the realisation it was the wrong one. PayPal were calling me and also turns out I took one bad turn which was going to get me in SHIT with trusting google maps and this would be the 1st time this year but not the last. This was lucky with good weather but still I really messed up the directions here.
The in-between bits did let up and it was also the first time to try Clubcard deals which included this korean bbq sauce which incredible tasting to say the least. Cereals were becoming the main addiction to my meals in the months to come as well, there is more crunch than others. Plus it was for more Sundays to work on.
More nights
Curiously cinnamon and bourbons are lush too
Blurred selfies as i got up newbridge
The combo of salsa and chocolate nut clusters is good too
Tesco selfie
The first Tesco shop of the year with Korean BBQ sauce
A dark selfie again
The Cycle in the dark selfie,
That and even the Monday was the cycle over the moors which Ponies are the curious ones for sure and it leads to some extra bits of gyozas I picked up from co-op in one time a while back.
Late Sunday salads after another working
The Pony walking towards me
A Bit of an air fried take on sausages, chips, gyozas and ketchup too
Eventually that was over and more work to get visits done and also it was longer evenings and the full days ahead of me, it was the time to finally get the garlic Alloli too. Morrisons is the only one thar sells the good stuff, it was finding out the others was just a garlic dip like mayo. the F had some new chats, even from a interesting girl that turned out to be someone I was chatting to my earlier years there that actually acts entirely different compared to them now. Which is nice and expanding too but not single so that doesn't lead anywhere as I kept saying to myself.
The shop from Morrisons including the garlic Alloli,
The selfie before the run home
But as things go along, it was getting to become some more nights ahead, especially as the season of pancakes was to pass with shrove Tuesday and with things going the way they were, getting a video made up was going to be tough when getting home at 9pm. But this was the first time to deal with the air fryer too.
The first pancake expected to the mix
The second pancake, the biscoff and nutella pancake
Now the week ahead of the last few days of the month were not too bad, sure work was not as hectic as it goes, sure a PC case to sort and change over as well as being able to get to the part with going to the grandparents with both there one last time, especially as even as typing this, the change became drastic and even too much to bear in one way.
A PC to finish building off.
This time was one of the first challenges of distance with actually running from lamerton back home. This is an impressive feat and was not the last time I did this, but as time would make me take new transport.
The run on the main road to get home
But then it was coming to the weekend, with the time to get the bus home luckily and it was also soon to get another review sorted out, which actually was purchased last year. Crimpit
A red light on the Bus home
The front of the box
The finished product
The inside of the crimpit
This was also the time I did something cheeky, It was time to go back to getting things done in the vlogs, which a eBay listing for glass came up and it was finally time to get Google Glass back, plus I was hinted to get filming for the Wedding which really put me at stress. But it was not too bad at the £150 mark.
Glass is back
Even with the final weekend of working on the Sunday which was to get things done But it was then getting to the next stage of 3 visits on the Monday for the second to final day of February.
More night selfies as I deal with a Monday
The final day with lovely weather, was another day but it was good to finally get to go Morrisons to pick up ice lollies as the heat was starting to kick in weather wise as it does sometimes in the early part of march and climate change.
The selfie when running
More Alloli and even the Ice lollies itself
But with some messages and the jokes on slow walking and also with the fast approaching time to prepare for easter, it was that start of the spring season in in a unique manner, my nerves were going to be prepared, the fall of grandparents is the start and in a name, it was just repetition.
March
Well it even begins with the same times and the legs have to go as they run into work, With the road being as it is and unlike last year with flirting with G as I ran, it was soon time to try the direct skips of the lanes by lumburn hill.
The main road
But eventually from getting there, it was time to get work sorted and carry , even with the friend getting food from oggys to become the status quo.
Bad habits from friends on a soon to be hired
But the run home was along more back roads was the key again, the north of the town is easier to set routes. Like if its the north of the town then I take the crease lane route, If its the south then try to take the canal but that depends on the dry weather.
A selfie on the way back
But this week was catching up to be the pinnacle of the first week with both grandparents in a care home, which in itself was a scary part but it was working around on this, since the intense few weeks of working were coming to an end and means I can get at least one day off a week. Which in the tides of things was coming to be, but soon was going to be the first Indian takeout of the year to finally have, thought I had to reheat it due to another run home.
One of the first times to reach the main road past horn of plenty
One of the first runs on the canal home in the dark this year
The first Indian of the year
This was going to be the chance to hear the story of family issues and the first time I've ever seen my grandad break down and cry, there was nothing we could do here minus having to both to another home to be together. This was going to be the start of the end and I was having the feeling of the end. Plus the first meal in Tesco and I was shaking quite badly.
The view from the care home
The Katsu curry
But this was also a quiet time to get the Laptop sorted out, again for the wedding and Opencore is sometimes the worst to deal with but there are tools like OC Auxiliary tools can be useful itself. Ok now the desktop we'll get to later on but there was some upgrades to that as well, which from the soon state of the storage market crashing to cause big savings I only wish I went more into .
Setting up Opencore to finally upgrade form Catalina to Monterey
Then it was going to be the first of the long hauls of when connections do not work, but actually it was a Bere Alston visit which via the Crowndale road shortcut is not too shabby.
The maps direction.
This was going to be one of the first of many times to use the train with a bike, I say A bike from the news ahead since this bike was soon to be on its life end.
The bike on the train
But some talks with the mobish which was soon to be the last time to ever speak to her, like after this it was going to be the end of that chapter, but another chapter before easter was soon to be which was going to be the topic.
More selfies in the light
As the middle of the week it was coming to the end plus it was also the first time I got a lift back home when I was offered it when getting to do a visit to a place I've not been for years which was a surreal feel to it, especially with it leading to another run. Plus delivering things to a hospital is a surreal part to this too. v
That shake as I ran
Its also funny as I realised that I got to run in on the Thursday morning and the time of PS5 going in worse. With some tools and a lucky guess, it was the start of the real issues with this. Since it was going to be having to make some BIG mistakes with soldering irons. But months later I finally got it sorted on my own end setting back £120 on top of replacing the console.
Then it leaves to the Monday and one router I was to expecting to do which was when trains get missed and battery conservation was almost very key, but the storms were bad enough which Gem bridge trees were fallen across the Path.
The Tree fallen after passing the bike over via lifting it
But as the visit took longer than I thought, IT made me miss the train, even when cycling as fast as safely can to St budeouax station. I missed it, so it was a long cycle back via the Tamar and Saltash, IT was scary in the storm and dark.
A view across the tamar bridge
Routes on Gogole
IF i turned right, it was going to go very wrong
But eventually was going to be the worst with going on one backroad which really fucked with me and the second time its a bumpy path in the dark, the luck was with the solid rubber tyres too. Eventually tat lead me to get home until just after 9pm which was about nearly 3 hours later, more like 2.5 hours of cycling. Little did i know this would be a repeating route month later. That was a long 43 mile day from Home to Chillaton , then on to Mary Tavy then to estover and Saltash afterwards.
But it leads to the week onwards which involves more visits going out of the way and end up being force to be picked up from even places such as Morrisons which had to be purchased of the Garlic Alloli and soon even deals purchased from the Co-op in the months before the changeover to asda many months later. Messages and chats were quiet at this point, but that was not preparing me for the return.
The views as i ran on the gulworthy road
The shop from the Co-op
But as the weekend was going to end, with a SSD for the laptop while the SSD price crash was going on it was going to be a break and that break was going to be to go to Bude.
The Kingston NV2 1TB drive
So this was actually the start of the better weather, with the mid march coming out and also 3 years since Lockdown would have begun to think about it, so days out like this were not as common, but this in itself was to get things off the mind and not worry about grandparents while they were being looked after in the home. The day out was nice, it had a slow charm to it, the Skechers was fine and even nice to have a vegetarian pasty which would have impressed G a fair bit.
The north Cornish coast always has the lovely views
The seawater pool in Bude
The pasty
Parking at Launceston to check on cars
As the weekend end and things were pretty much back to the normal, so late nights working and also getting to check accounts over, this was going to be more than one occasion things were going to be harder.
Counting money
Toe nail clippings to be done
But it was catching up and visits plus it was starting to get more brighter which means the distance home was not as bad, this was going to be referred as soon with a vlog to finally catch up and do when it comes near easter.
More hills to go up
Pets crashing out at night
It was also nice to have wraps again since late Feb and march does have a warm food discount with Mexican cusine. So wraps with ham and mayo and the potato sticks makes it nicer, salsa is good too. Plus the Friday was going to the stage of a road diversion since of a accident on the bends by Newbridge.
The wrap with ham, other bits and even salad
But as time flows on, from having afternoon on Mondays off for a change which was a trip to Jewson's and also just having a more positive looks from the weather clearing up, it was going to be easter.
The run on the gulworthy road again
A walk on the meadows path like in the olden days
As the end of the days of march , with more friends to visit after the shop to go through things, the visit i had to go thro8gh with 2 visits in lamerton was a stretch, even with running to Both visits, luckily I got a lift back to the shop but in that instance the run home until 10pm was not too bad.
The run up dirt tracks in lumburn
AS it comes to the last day, the colleague treated me to a bacon sausage bap which that day was a visit nearby home so that did not mean I had to worry about running that off, else i would have not felt well, since there are times that would start happening when running on bloated. But alas it was a nice fitting or the last bits to prepare for since next month was going to be.
The Bacon Bap
My nerves were beginning to break And it was going to be a matter of time before the next month was going to the less than hours away. Especially as the catch up blogpost was near complete and the clocks going forward things were going to look up.
April:
Now this month is where things start to decline, we already begin with having to run home as the normal time to it and this was also going to be the first Monday not doing visits compared to others, which meant for a change being able to see nan and grandad at their new care home for the past month or so which things seem like they were levelling off a bit, but the talk of the wedding was getting crippling, sure messages on sites were not getting as hectic. Monday was also getting by with working in the shop
But it was also time with the road to go home being resurfaced and that meant tripping is the risk on the road. This was also the time of dealing with a catfish on snap called Becca that lived in Liverpool but her snaps has US LICENSE PLATES on them which was screaming the catfish mantra here for sure. Months later I saw where the original pics came from on Instagram.
The empty bus on the way into work
The run home via gulworthy
A drive home with mum after seeing both in the Home
A Nice Sunday breakfast of a ham and curiously cinnamon toasted sandwich
Which then it was going to be the next two weeks to prepare for the wedding, with outfits having to be tried on, easter was coming up for the next two weeks on top and it was going to be the time that soon I'll have to get the time to vlog and find out what was going to become of my own life. Plus there were going to be intense issues with Water-cooling which was going to fuck my life up for a bit of a while. That and it was nice to chat to a good friend that bonds in various ways of talking and she is a dream type of girl, but she helped me out last year with someone and its hard to semi go back and explain what happened which for me was soon to repeat the past and do what I should not have done, or more reply to what I should not have replied to.
More gifted sausage rolls
PC Building was at its busiest all year
But it was approaching the easter weekend or the week before, which was going to involve a few visits to Hospital for seeing clients, one of which would pass away in the weeks to come. Which also it was making sure to be able to run back home, luckily the nights were pulling out so that distance was going to feel safer. Hopefully it will be able to cross paths instead of roads when the weather was going to dry up.
A selfie on the hill up by the station
Well, I've caught up and these past 3 weeks have felt just not even me. I mean I've worked and pushed myself as far as I'm going, made some mistakes on some fronts, back to bad habits and well hopefully aq chance to prepare to the circumstances to deal with next week
Ok sure i've had video calls with some on snap, deal with scammers on the middle of the road while running home and most of all I still realise I miss what could have been and the past is the past but what future is there,
As some of the distances was in the dark, it was still nice to see the sunset in some o the places, early April sometimes has the feel of a summer.
A view of the sunset on the way home
A better look at the sunset
But then it was soon time to catch up with projects and it was getting to good Friday, a Work visit was going to be a normal delay as usual. Plus with the essence of the first ever cans of Gfuel arriving to the shop, the times of the shop might get popular. I say this and some of these OG cartons are still in the shop left
Cans of Gfuel
Which then it leads to that run home was finally time to catch up on the events that have happened, from G of the wee lass to even more catfish encounter, plus it was also making me realise how the move has made me cope with things, like having to force myself to get and call the new place home and also how my fitness was starting to improve with this new regime of commute to work.
A selfie on the road home
But as normal times carry it was another train home after a visit to a work friend which I ended up getting the train home for a change instead of doing the run back home as per normal. The prices to pay of £2.40 which is actually doing very good value and before the £2 pricing bus cap, it was cheaper than the bus to go home. But this station was getting to be more popular in the news months later on with the Tory announcement of scrapping HS2 expansion which the Rail link between Bere Alston and Tavi was going to get sorted or funding at lest.
The wait at the station
A bath when I got home
Gfuel to finally try myself
This was then leading to Easter Sunday and well its going to be time to enjoy some chocolate and also take it easy for that weekend and it was very close to the breaking point. But the bike needed cleaning again, especially as soon
The recess egg
This involved the bike to be cleaned since eventually that was going to be a chore in the long run. Especially as ore things on the bike were soon to go and there was messages from one girl but soon that was going to be the last time we had spoken this year, her profile disappears. But a walk in the afternoon would end up leading to getting some ice cream from Co-op.
The Bike to be cleaned again
The ice cream
But the bank holiday was approaching which internal plans were to be found but it turned out another visit was to be able to get the plan in motion, and that was with bac and forth emails regarding delivering clothes to the place in case of anything happening So oi could just leave if that came to pass. But it was crazy of how month or so ago at this time it was pitch black dark and now its clear ish sky and also warm to even sweaty conditions.
The selfie before dropping the clothes of at St Mellion
But once that was done, it was time to continue the week, with more visits to friend in work to help out which also leads to more friends to visit and drop bits off, like a can of sour cherry ad something else but that rush to get home made the bus getting missed, so it means more of the 2 hour distance from a old dog walking site back to the new home, which this is NOT going to be the only time this happened. But getting home and also seeing hedgehogs eating by the gate of the house either.
The Hedgehog
As it leads to the Final day it was getting some bits before finally doing a run home and this run home was actually going on the bere Alston Crowndale road which also meant a trip for ice lollies in Morrisons which are tasty and getting back late on the day before the wedding plus having an all-nighter does not really help the anxiety to calm down.
The shopping from Morrisons including Garlic Alloli, Picklenaise before running home
But then it leads to getting a Review of the power bank done overnight before the start of the Wedding itself, Since I was still awake and revved from the night before. Since it was preparing with the power bank to be charged up for glass for the recording of what could happen, my nerves were over the top. But it shows how useful things were for the power bank to work.
The Packaging of the battery
The Laptop charging
But then it was some chores and a toasted sandwich, then while getting changed, it was checking CCTV in work since I let my colleague cover me for the 2 days since of how MY mental health was going to get a bad turn. But walking Rosie was going to be the mini savour to reflect on this. The weather was actually getting warmer on that day since it was starting to clear up and getting actually hotter, especially on the drive to the venue.
Rosie as her usual pose
A sombre selfie
The tables out
As it was getting towards the final hour or so before I lose my sister in a name, the weather was clearing up, But it was my shakes at a serious time of scare factor. Which after being outside, it was then time to go in and film the wedding from the back.
The view outside
The view when going to film it.
But that was the ceremony over which that was in in a legal standpoint, but that was over and it was going to be the case of being stuck in the toilet and scared, being unable to move out of there with the fear of what just happened making me realise it was going to be tough with the meal and the in-between awkward chats.
The Chicken I didn't eat too much of
Eventually this part was over and the starts with the speech's was over and done with, which then it was going to be the room being revamped while the evening was prepared, but I was pretty much going to leave with grandparents, which in the journey home was grandad talking about me without realising I was in the back. But when i got dropped off near the school, When i walked Rosie, I broke down.
The broken down selfie
This is where i felt my lowest which was going to be the reason I had the shakes and was soon to get therapy to see how things were going to become. Which talkworks were the hard part to get hold and book that appointment which was going to come and happen sooner then I think. But this weekend was one to take things easier and lay some wreaths plus hear the gossip of what went on in the hotel such as the fire alarm going off due to a fire in the spa which things like this can always appear to happen. That lead to a walk in cotehele before a nice fakeaway in the evening. Plus getting out of bed that day was not easy at all.
The daffodils at Cotehele
Chocolate cake from the wedding, I missed the cake cutting due to the breakdown
the chicken curry with the rice and extra bits
But as this weekend was going on to be a bit more taking it easy to make sure I was recovered but this made me realised things were going to have to change sooner or later. Spoilers but they don't. But That Sunday was a nice visit to see the grandparents after the wedding 2 days before. They were ok and the truth is the sleeping was stating to take its show on grandad more than anything, which we will come back to that later. But as the time progressed of the easter treats were ending soups and sandwiches to take things easier, then Monday, was a trip to my regulars then on to get bits which B&M so close is probably another benefit to living but to be fair thats only when using the bike, buses are that bit far on waiting and the legs will tire for the visits.
The soup
Hotpot in a Yorkshire pudding
Sunday selfies after Morrisons
A selfie before B&M
The food shop from B&M which was not too shabby
But as the working in the shop again was going to be feeling like myself, sure it was getting some visits done in the evening and also the plans for the weekend were to get the video editing done for the wedding vlog and also the ceremony for sisters sake. But as the weather was pulling out for the light more, it was safer to run home in.
The sandwich gifted
Upside down selfies when running down the hill
The night sky I still see on the way home however
More nights with food to cook and make with biscoff spreads
Gifted cereal and boots do deals sometimes
But this food in the afternoon doesn't always do the world of good and running home does slow me down for the most part, eventually this would change and once the end of hiring, my performance would improve. But the spring was a sweaty moment to get home.
The running
As the weekend approached, it felt good that I could get time to not have to do much minus edit and making that time for it was going to be tough, ok sure the Sundays were not so much of an issue but the evenings still take their time out . but the Food bank had seaweed thins to appear and those were HOT wasabi but very Moorish.
More shop to organise
the itsu from the foodbank
Sunday was
Pancakes for the Sunday morning
The selfie when editing
Fried chicken and sausages
Then messages from soon to be the end of the girl from Manchester and a princess with a Costco love was still going to be talking on an off with the months ahead, but it was soon to be a return of a scammer in caramel sauce. All while the footage of the wedding was done and dusted finally.
The evenings to get home with
More sausage rolls for lunch
But then it leads to the point of more distances and as the weather was better, the canal was starting to become the way to get home in the light again, which this was going to be a good way to get home.
The run to the canal path passing the Crowndale road to save some time
another selfie when going up the station
The final days of April were here, it was an exhausting month and next month was not going to be easy on me either, in some ways, other ways it feel like take it easy mentality. More Garlic Alloli was purchased and it was was the first KFC of the year by this point too. That KFC rewards app does some bout of deals.
Morrisons has more deals too
Chocolate for lunch
The conservatory in the care home was grandparents favour place
The KFC bucket
The view of the sound from devils point
The view of royal William yard
But this was the calm and then May was upon me, with a coronation to deal with, friends to hang out with and even the chance of more stress.
May:
Now this was going to start off another working week, Monday was going to the 3 visits which mostly arrive in the near Tavi college area of the town. But that then lead me to cycle back home.
Selfies in the bike phone holder mount
The bank holiday approaching weather was getting hotter and the evenings pulling out even more, So visits meant to take more time and then the distance it was even soon time to get the wither good enough to use the footpath across the farm field.
Sunset running on Gulworthy road
More cooked meals and spring rolls are a bonus too for the Thursday food
The run home up the hill on the Thursday
Then it was the start of the Coronation Weekend which in that regard meant new things to , music sheets to see and the crowds were positive and the locals seemed happy for that short ish week form how it felt. At least it was getting hotter on the weather side.
tents and marquees for the Saturday evening in the sure event for the coronation
This was a selfie on the way home
another selfie when getting up the hill
the Sweet potato fries with donuts and even spring rolls
But as a caramel scammer still continued to message me, it was then to take it easy and see how the coronation Sunday. Which in its ways was a quiet one since I didn't have to worry about going places too much, minus the fact of it was getting humid and also the BBQ down at the main road was quite full.
A Lie in for the Sunday
The coronation street party
As that was done, it was back to normal, the Monday was going to be the case of a cycle and job catch up, but more friends of work to see which means more running back, the weather was a bit wetter that time. Wednesday was more regular customers and a run back on the bere Alston road back home which has a nice common ground to it. Oreos are a nice common ground to.
The Run on steep hills
A Bus home
Oreos with more of a cottage pie style.
But as it was coming to a close with ignoring the scammer, it was soon to get deal with a X Post (Tweet back then) which was going to change my life. But it was also the summer which lead to getting out the Swing ball for Rosie to play with. That Thursday was having to close early to run to grenofen which then to run back to the shop then to the other end of town before having to cancel another appointment.
Another run near the hall of plenty
Swing ball selfie
As it leads to the weekend, it was another release coming up and it was getting to finally get that built up, but the weather was getting towards a heatwave style bit, which was nicer for the runs home in the hazy clear sky. Which this was then leading to lighter meals in terms of salad and rice's .
The back paths in the tamar valley is lovely in various times
Bluebells are actually lovely here too
Looking back on the paths
Rosie and the ice cream
A walk back on the river
Sausages and potato croquettes
But then it was soon to deal with the consequence re-occurring from last year but it leads to the point of finally getting to one of my other customers to prepare for a big laptop to sell to them, which in itself was going to take the time. That meant Lydford was going to be quite a fair bit of repetitions this year to visit,
Another cycle selfie
The classic chicken tika
Now this is where things get bad, it was during the morning of the 16th and a DM from someone I blocked last year, which turns out it was going to lead to a lot of stress and ALOT of the same mistakes of this which trust me, I was going to be used but little didn't I realise how deep this situation would go with her. So much so, there would be a bet made for games on promises with the colleague at the time.
The gifted donut and sausage roll
More hips, salad and hoisin sauce for the change of summer food
The message it seems was ongoing, to be e bon the same topic of the borrowing something to get home. Which trains last minute are Bot cheaper unless further in distance of time. Which was going to se me back a fair bit of money and that boundary of stopping was going to be expensive and it gets stopped i the end which for me was the question of when was the end going to be this year.
The garden in the evening
Shopping in lidl after work
More running home in the dusk
The ready meals really do get references for extras like Ham and Salad with biscuits to go with the mayo
AS the days went on, the requests were building up and the relying on me was going to happen more and more, especially with the start of false promises of her mum t pay me back since she lived closer to me which I was going to soon to have to raise that as yet another red flag. But more gifted food and running to places on the way home is the vibe with the good weather …
More gifted Sausage rolls
The green on the hedges as I ran home from places
Salsa becomes the topping to add, the Lidl one got Moorish
Runs home on different directions
But this weekend was coming up to the a big one, with pub meals and a train trip with the family , the 1st and nearly one one of the year we did together to be fair, which those railcard discounts do add up. And makes me want to really go on these again for a vlog, especially as I was to realise that the last year of using railcard was coming up since once I'm 31 and its November when the card expires, I cannot renew the national one until I'm a OAP and senior at 60 .
Cardboard to take back the way home Saturday night
The bacon burger and chips from the local pub down the road for £11.50 ish
This day was nice since of chatting to someone nice as well on Whatsapp while she was sneaking back on the Feabs too, I really needed to see what was going on and should have not done what i did from that Tuesday, the false promise to pay back was really what I kept falling for tbh.
The selfie while the train was passing in valleys
Reaching Exeter St David's
Spoons pub lunch
Walking to the cathedral and nearly tripping up on a kerb nearby is a lol fest too , plus the bird photobombed me or this shot
The quay us lovely too
The shopping centre to eat ice creams before the train back
Subway on the train home is a first
But soon it would be a message from someone I've not spoken to since last year and I miss her, like its in short spouts of messages but both of our lives change in a year from her moving to Wales, me to Cornwall. Sure last year was tipsy video calling but this year was more of a casual bond, especially when i had a afternoon off and got to get bits from Ginsters and Tesco near home for a change. Which earing gossip about kittens and vets is cute and also a scry moment about how precious life can be . But "just shave the head bro" was a line i randomly got from the F too .
The shop from Tesco while texting on WhatsApp, since mum want me to make a Katsu curry
Going to Ginsters
The shop in B&M, Ginsters and Tesco in one hit an stuffed into the rucksack and cycled home
The first gluten free Ginsters Pasty and a Toasted sandwich
A sunny Monday afternoon Dog walking toward the River via backroads and paths of Dimson
But then it was like nothing ever happened and work was to continue PLUs now the DMs were getting pushy and expecting me to find time to go to Plymouth to drop something off was just exhausting but the month ahead that will come to pass in a bad way non the less from how the bike was going to cope. Supporting people that have no boundaries will fuck you over is what i should have shouted to myself back those months ago, it would make no difference to the situation since pressure would mot make it stop anyway.
But then it was Back to its rout and multiple places to visit on that evening, which it was also getting the waffle changes, plus seeing the cats was always to cheer me up, but it was still nice and warm to deal with the weather on the way back.
More selfies on the end of Newbridge
Waffles and carbs to go with the end of day meal
But as more visits come back with new situations coming over, from a customer getting involved as a secretary to the other point of security situations, but it was the first run in the dark in the slate spring early summer there, but even this time of getting home by 11pm is a new one for me.
The selfie on the way home near 11pm mark .
A Roast as extras
As it comes to the 25th, it was coming up with more favours of desperation being DM'd over to me, which spelling mistakes aside, this was getting prepared since this weekend was supposed to be a 90th birthday meal to sort out and work always gets in the way as other put it, with some people wanting to have a visit, which has to make work a bit more complex to say the least.
A ice salad Mexican style meal for the Thursday,.
So that in itself was actually interesting wit getting over to be able to get the bus in via the morning to then catch up on a phone repair at the time, since it was then having to close early to be picked up by parents for then the drive over to the George for this meal. Plus messages from someone i used to feed is nice and the hope it would lead to something more one day, sadly not.
Then it was a time to go to Lidl to enjoy some exploring in the Range, its nice to sort out visiting there which the Iceland in there too, some of the best deals have been in there and Iceland has all the trending foods like niknaks chicken breaded and also the TGI Fridays burger recipes too.
The parking outside the Range
But then it was to have to rush back to Tavi for a Visit of a CPU upgrader from a Ryzen 5 2600 to a Ryzen 5 5600 if I correctly remember. Luckily, I had time to get one more visit before to get the bus back, which means on the hill up was more tomatoes to pick up from the food fridge.
The tomatoes from the food fridge
This was then leading to be able to have tea outside in the sun for the first time this year, with the weather being hot enough and the view from the house. Which for this bank holiday weekend of Whitsun, it was nice to use the firepit for the 1st time and second to last time in the year.
Scones and ham and more of a lighter tea to have
A selfie with the fire glowing and laptop out
But then it was time for more running about and having to be forced to get a lift from parents due to a long day which things have to be arranged, especially like something as typing newsletters on a iPad was going to become the very much bane of the rest of this year. But this was also going to be a full long weekend of working so Lydford was going to be the case. Then it was going to be the case that I had to help with some removal bits of slabs to bring back home from the paddock in the evening. Which then it was to come home to prepare to another Monday, which for a change I could actually visit nan in the care home, after a visit about printer and 4G router setups, which months later I got told this customer was moving to Scotland which is a change and a half. But since of that, it had to be more visits to a friend in work after so it was back to the Tavi route I had to go.
The last day was being able to pay into the post office while things were semi quiet and yet it was many visits after work, sure some quick deliveries on the way to another regular and then it was to run home in the sun of the quick light, since it was eventually going to end up that June of where my limits of distance were going to be PUSHED.
June:
As the final chapter for this part 1 of the review of the year, it was getting to the tense times, since soon I was to MAKE a big mistake, the Bike was showing the signs it was on its way out again and as more pressure was looming to find out the mistakes made would cost me ALOT in the future. But visits to Lidl in the morning were a former habit soon to be forgotten. But after that was 2 delayed visits which meant as guessed it, another distance home which is that preparation. Especially as the days ahead was long , since like going back and forth to places due to a PC that was needing to be sorted and the weight of it is not easy at al. Which then leads to another running on the way back which that run home on the canal path. Then to walk Rosie in the field after since it was time, especially as soon it was going to be time to myself to sort things out while parents had a bit of a break.
Saturday evening was the run on the canal path home
This was another Sunday in the making and this was to get the fact of being able to sort out another set of regular customers with Fitting 4G antennas which ordering in once every few months helps quite a bit. But it was also the case of having to travel from village to village for these, especially as the bike was on its semi last legs in the weeks to come. Plus the runs home were passing on the part where I could chat on F while that distance home too.
Selfie while on the cycle halfway between visits
Once that was done it was time to enjoy late lunches and more preparation for the end of the bike. But the summer means more salad like pepperoni and ham. But even as nights change the food has its own tasty.
The light tea from the night
But tit comes to that Monday and this was where the mistake of helping people out is a very clear thing,, So i had some time off in the afternoon after having to puts it from Tavi to Yelverton,, which meant for me was to actually get some time to drop a Phone off to that person ' of all things which was to be able to get her back on her feet to so speak after the reason she messaged me last month.
The Selfie before getting a bus
But in the end if was actually more chores and the going to be also to drop this phone but it ended up the wrong flat and not meeting up, this complex of places in the court of L was nice but as I was finding out out, i was just going into a deeper hole of mistakes, but I managed to ger the train back home. Sure
The Lake by the Ui is a a nice memory
But with that phone dropped off it was the end of this other chore for now and it was going to be ahead of the me, where I was going have to del with giving a phone to someone that was going to end up relying on me as a one way side which I need to make sure the boundary was there which it was going to lead to a bet with a colleague on this . But the station and the journey railcard discount was going to become more common in the months ahead.
The station
More food on for Tea
Alas work resumed and it was soon to be new places to go which involved more distanced to run and this time was actually going on the bus from Tavi to Gulworthy the n the run to calstock, since of that connection, missed, which actually i is not the greatest achievement ever this year but will be just the 6th or 7th i would say .
A sweaty selfie up a lane in Guni to get home
A selfie in the dusk at Calstock before the run up the hill to go home
Cookies and Burgers is the reward for that distance
But as the visits eased, it was nice to get time to clear the shop out as the places was piling up with cardboard, especially as soon as some of that cardboard would be used to get things packed up for a potential sale of the house grandparents living in, but that was before things were going to go into a state of scare and shock of how health was really taking its toll.
The cardboard on the bus home
As the weekend was going to approach, it was the time i was going to have to face time on my own, which is fine but it was going to be hopefully the bike was going to sort itself out and with help of work neighbours before they retire, that was the case. But bits from Morrisons an Tesco and even Lidl before being forced to be picked up was happening, since people were starting to get concerned about working as I was which isn't my faulty becuase of fucking choices about moving to the rural villages with poor connections and this argument was going to get worse over the months to come.
Bits from morrisons
Burger Sauce was the craving in the summer months
These are how my immune system was seemingly going strong, or so i thought
Those portraits of Finley out on the road in the midnight hours
But the weekend was here and the Bike was fixed with new gear changings and yet another shifter in this bikes lifetime, but it was soon to be the last month of this bike fully working before an old problem returned with a vengeances. Repairs to this bike was about a quarter of the cost of the bike at this point, half half if you include the replacement battery.
New shifter
Second derailleur replacement
As the weekend was still a fully working one, the time of having to myself was now which was meant to be things like a interview for a podcast which in the end was gong t have me harassed to get one sorted even like 4 months later from "fans". This in itself was ending up not going to happen due to my body beginning a cold in the middle of a fucking heatwave of all things , or my body was getting tired out from the non stop side.
Cycling along the canal path home
The Monday was nice though, since I could finally get some bits from B&M to cycle home with after my regular customer on the monthly basis and the best ideas was to try to carry a big pack of Rubicon mango to last me during this heatwave and more, plus the Wham and Dippy or Dip Dip other sweet drinks on offer makes it tempting yet refreshing too. B&M can be a feeding haven for the right person into it .
Parking up in the Callington Car Park
Cycling home with all of those bits was a task but I got it
But this was soon to be the time to finally sin up to online dating sites and actually some semi interesting stories do begin but even months later it has not lead to more than a few messages before no reply, but due to the way bumble worked, I had to delete it since it did not lead me to get anywhere. This ais also where it was getting to have to get the chores habits of walking Rosie when coming back from visits after work which was going to be later but not as later as it has been in the recent past.
The weather when walking Rosie
The field was soon a common walking spot
But this was leading to my body needing to rest and well luckily E3 events were on or actually The Summer Games show nowadays, so catching up with the Ubisoft conference when crashing out on the sofa until 1am is not half shabby even with Rosie barking near my face with eyes closed does not help.
Home Cooked Katsu curry mixed with Rice and more of those mini cookies
Crashing out while watching conferences
But as it was to be the near end days before parents were back, the routine was semi there, Some new chats from girls but that was going to lead to nowhere or the same old scams of one sided, plus the Scottish lass was on ,y vase for a meal, which it was fading since of the one-sided ness like not even one video call. G was doing ok but still quiet and of course it was a nice 2 week gap of no favours of repetition of being relied on but that was Soon to change.
A Moring Dogwalk
Back to the evening runs home
Late meals and Chocco nussa was still mmph
But the Sunday was to finally feel a bit of relaxing but it was going to the point that it was one long walk to get around metherell, which was to see if there was an easier route from Saltash to get home instead of the full back road, But breakfast sandwiches are always.
The smoothie and the sarnie
Another weekend and another shave needed
That lead to more of the visits by bike, Yelverton was always good as that passing point, since it was coming up to 1 week before a baby shower being hosted at home. But this one was the art of something that was going to lead to having to d more and more, but it was due to a waiting time of file transfer which caused a back and forth mentality.
The sunny selfie in the village
The shop from Lidl which sorbet was going to be my next addiction for the few months
Garlic bread and curry works with the Alloli ,
Now the 22nd was going to be the case of how things were really going to start to show their work, since I had a visit from a regular and it was soon to choose between waiting hours for a train or use the legs and of this, it was the longest day of the actual year, but a circumstance lead to me deciding to run back home from Bere Alston, which is fine BUT then it comes to a phone call. Which was going to be what i guess So having to deal with this ad this was going to NOT be the first time there was an interruption of a phone call when doing a visit of this kind.
Well getting the Grape Ka from the Premier before a long run in the paths towards morewellham, the phone signal was going to go off, but the distance was a new journey, paths I've never been were to be looked at and it eventually connected to a familiar path, which lead to finding out the an seeing the best view I've ever taken in years, I said to myself i would do a video here, so this time would partly count. That distance was one I find out would NOT be the only time I did this.
The sunset from over the tamar trails
A selfie after completing the trails part of the distance home
The distance that night
Even when i get home its Still FUCKING TEXTS and CALLS ignoring what I fucking said. But eventually it will be a boundary I will have to make and be clear on that.
A feast of a reward
Which means for now the nights are going to start to get darker in a gradual tone and this was going to have ana cause and effect later on. But it was more distances and fans wanting selfies on the way home was matching the same way i was going. Plus it was more chatter from a friend, since her partner was going to take her to this steak place but also likes to chat to me on video call when he is asleep after his shift and last year I could do it but this year I'm exhausted to do thee things.
The selfies
ham and noodles for tea that night
A selfie at dusk
But it was still nearing the final week of Jun and the end of 6 months of the year already, the chores of lifts in with family was happening more for this period plus that meant more friends to see after work on the work side, specially as it was soon to be a birthday for one coming up.
Curries after runs from work
Selfies on the disk home, in this case a field
The cereal plus sausages
As it ends up, this weekend was still to be going, which in itself is a not surprise, but there are things to get done when having to be kicked out of the house for the the most of the day, which in turn was the BBQ bits to prepare for and also finish wrapping up a baby present of a giant Cubone.
The Giant cubone for the sister's new-born when it was meant to appear in the few weeks after this was taken .
But this was then to just be a nice bit of lush weather and even good karma with getting some stranded passengers a drink of water to share while waiting for their taxi back to the station which was apparently meant to be arranged by GWR.
Sauces from Tesco on the way home
The first plate of the BBQ with Salad, onion rings, burger sauce in the burger and all that
But as the last few days go, it was time to sort out the matching on Dating apps which was getting some matches but messages which were like "You should change your profile but yet I'm not interested in you". But more selfies were needing to be used for it. Plus work was still as busy but the endgame of the big lunches were soon to end in 2 months time
The selfie on the hill
Bacon Baps in lunch
Then it was more shops in Lidl and more of the waffles while Lidl still sold them, since the taste of the chocolate coating is always a lush feat. But then it was soon to end as preparing for a sad month of the 7th month of 2023.
More of a mexican shop from lidl this time
The chicken tikka with the ham and chocolate waffle to go with some of the extras
More sandwiches lunches in work
As it was then to lead to the end of the first half of the year, more requests were coming in about this podcast interview I was being t eventually get nagged to try to have to arrange on the clappers for and the deal it becomes was with a RAGE starting to burn from "Is there any chance you could do the xx today, I'm really desperate and it wont happen again even when I've said this about 6 times this year" . Like it was going to be 2 months until I set my first assertive warning out.
Well enjoy the past and the next half will be hopefully before the years end.
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