A Wedding of a Sister

 Right, this is where things get to a big event in anyone's life and trust me, Good might not come out of this and things might get said when said it not and things go out of hand. In this case, it caused things to be really scary and I regret going in the long run.  There might be a vlog for this but it will be delayed since there is an NDA for some of the content of this wedding from what was said. But it led to making me realise how the busy times affect me and maybe my life has become out of control. 

The night before: 

It was another day of work on Thursday and with the expectation of this event, it was going to be demand to l jump up to the very late night before, and you know was actually going to be a last-minute PC repair which parts were needed for replacing from a week ago. Customer after customer came in and with even some repairs now turned away to make sure I get the time. But as things get rushed, I didn't leave the shop until 6:53pm. Then it was a rushed pelt to bishops mead. Then it was 2 visits to sort out from across each other. But that led to some brain-stressing ones and finishing at 20:50 ish. i made my way to Morrisons to get some Pickle mayo, and wham refreshers ide duos and their buts, We got it for exactly £5 then get £0.01 change. 

The Branston Pickle Mayo, Alloli, And the Ice Duos 

Then it was 9:15pm and the time to run to get the chance to come home.  So the run was basically this time to get through their forest near Bere Alston, It started to be the case of running back on that road and as I was getting a bit tired but the rain was there in the forest.  As I ran, my breath was covering the photo of the views from just near the shillamill tunnel.

The road and my breath make the fog

The Forest and the fog

But the run continued and it was heading on the road, a couple of cards passed by and then when on the farm lane, the rain was starting to be a bit heavier which in turn was meaning wet clothes on top. But then it was to get to the road and it was getting scary, blinding lights on sometimes both sides but luckily not at the same time.  But It was soon Eventually I ran my way back and it was 10:30. So as knackered as I was it was I got back.  Then it was to make a smoothie and a nice mix of pot noodles and tomato chilli couscous. 

The late-night meal on Thursday 

So it comes down to then having to sort out a video, Since I managed to sort out the meal eaten, I got ready and then caught up on some admin. This led to getting a Can of Gfuel Pewdipie and it was nice since on Wednesday the intern gave me a sip of the sour cherry he wanted me to drop to his on Wednesday along with the keys so the shop was covered for the weekend. But this led to an all -nightery for finishing the vlog from Good Friday. 

But then that was to be rendered between 6am and 7am, since it was around 3am in the morning I managed to sort out setting up a review for a Power bank that can charge the Laptop. But it was quite flat so that was needing to be charged up. 

The Power Bank 

Charging the Power Bank 

But then it was a mini fap and making sure I was not too phased out since of the preparation, in all fairness a glass of the Rainbow Sherbet and also the can of pewdipie was all I needed to do the All-nighter which was better than the New Year's Eve Video editing.

So then it leads to dealing with Finley who wanted to come in at the 6am mark and then Mum was up at the 7am mark since she had to go for the makeup about 4 to 5 hours earlier. But then it's the morning. 

The Day of the Wedding

The Morning Preparation

So still awake and nervous about what could happen worst case. So we begin to the stark contrast of making sure things go smoothly, for me it was charging the laptop up while it was uploading and also the library to be copied to the USB drive to then copy it to the desktop PC for editing later on, well especially macOS is now running on both machines easily, makes it better to do the editing like the good Friday run home vlog was about. 

The Charging via the Powerbank 

But it was then going to be the case of Mum was ready to go by 7:45 am and I was than to eat a nice toasted ham Brantonaise sandwich and also a strawberry doughnut. While the clip was uploading. 

The Ham Branstonaise Garlic Alloli Toasted Sandwich 

Then it was the start of copying the library to the PC and that let me manage to get things kicked in, so it was to get some emails sorted out in case people decide to call.  But then it was nearing 9 am and time we decided to walk the dog. I and Dad were in loose clothes and it was to get Rosie walked since she was going to be on her own for the few hours ahead. But it was starting to clear up on the weather. 

Rosie waiting to wait for the path to carry on 

But then I got back about the 10 am mark and it was actually a call to sort out which then was to get changed and also keep an eye on the CCTV to see how work was going, But then it was time to get the suit on, with the cufflinks on and also the chance with the other side of things, plus emailing people to let know what was going to happen.  Then it was going to the changing to finish off and then time to get in the car for the suit, the weather was getting sunny. 

A Selfie in the Suit 

Glass in the car 

The Wedding:

The Journey and Preparation 

So the weather was really getting better and the sun appeared, my legs were shaking at the non-stop mark, and I started to breath heavy and also the vibe of how things were going to go which really did not make things any easier. Sure it was positive and Dad was seeming chirpy about this all. But it was soon there, about 11:45 we got there. 

As we parked in the resort car park, which was the other side where I parked the bike for dropping off clothes for the plane in case things were going to be too much for me. So about the 12 mark, we got out of the car and I lifted the Ninja out of the golden-wrapped box. 

We ended up turning right at the reception and then going towards the bedrooms, But then we ended up going down the golfer's bar, But that was not the right one and I was starting to feel a bit numb, so we walked to reception and dad had to hold it. But then as we got there, mum with her curled her hair and then she nagged me for shaking but then we were told to hang about and I was nerved out. This was after the dropping off of the presents in the room the reception was going to be. 

The Reception 

then it was the key to how things were and Man I was going to be scared. But I was off to get a drink which was a glass of water to calm the nerves, But I was actually really getting to the point I could not even speak, like it was a very part of how things are scary and I was not going to be prepared for this. But Then I walked to the bar and had to write it down, So the glass of water was ordered and I Shook as I gulped it down, but then it was the chance to walk outside for some of the fresh air as more guests arrived. Outside the reception, I was greeted by the groom and he said that He was not nervous about spending the rest of his life with my sister which is a fair comment but also said just wish I could get over this day, I can relate but not the former. 

 It was greeting people like grandparents and it was also the wind was getting a bit gusty. But I had to argue with myself on how this had nothing to do with me but at the same time, I was also scared of what this means in the future. I reflected on this while out in the wind between 12:30 and 1pm. 

The reflection and sky out 

So it was the last few minutes before the ceremony was going to happen and I walked my way back to the reception, I was scared and also had to then ask Dad to let me have the keys to go back to the car to pick up the tripod. I got to the car to pick it up and was very tempted to just stay in the car, but I forced myself to get it and go back. Since it was only moments away from the start of a big realisation for my life in a very small way.  

The Ceremony 

So It was time for me to get this done, I was also approached to put the flower on the suit but I shook my head when asked and turns out this was the rep spoken to in the email and she reminded me that the clothes were behind the reception. But Then the room was ready with the Postmaster mentioning it. But then it was time to go in there, the chairs were laid out nicely and the sun on the views was showing in, the only thing would be the column in the way. 

The Guests sitting down 

So I positioned myself at the back, tripod at the ready and phone and Glass ready to go and this in turn was me to just be silent, sure my knees were starting to ache. But it was soon time for the Groom to go out and stand to wait for my sister to pop in. 

The waiting 

The time on the screen shows the wait that is happening 

So then the music started playing and my sister walked in the door, with my hand holding her hand as they walked in, which in her white dress and would not know she was pregnant.  But then it was time for this to happen and the service started. 

The ceremony was the explanation about Marriage and love which was actually like a lecturer, with the way that Vows can be repeated in different ways and also about the except of what love is and actually, it was not as much or at all related to the Lord and Savour. So it was the vows which were traditional thick and thin of it all, so to cherish the good and bad and to love as a whole etc. Both said I do and some accidental slips of worse while repeating, but it was all in all, a peaceful and focused silence while this was done, ok one of the babies of my sister's mates was crying but that cannot be helped. 

But it was eventually time those words were spoken and I felt a bit of a tear in my eye as it was heard, so the words were spoken of Mr and Mrs and then it was the legal witness signing from both families, Ed Shereen or was it another song which reminded me from one of the Twilight films kicked into play. Either way, it was a happy feeling for most of the crowd but also not as exciting part, a calm presence.  Then it was the walking out with both and others followed.

I was starting to pack up and I was feeling a bit sick, knowing what was about to sink in some words that in a way make no fucking sense to me but in other ways, it was then me trying to get to the door. 

I Froze, so the crowd was around the sister which is fair and completely whelming with the celebration of that simple fact of what just happened. But My legs were like jelly and it was then needing me to rush to the toilet after a bit of fresh air and reflect in the wind on what happened. But then It was that toilet rush, which I thought originally was locked but turned out was just a heavy door. I had to then go into the cubicle and freeze. This was me stuck in here for the next half hour at the very least. 

My mind rushed and I say what sounds stupid but just hurts 

I just lost my sister in a name wise, I'm now an only child in name

That just kept going through my head and also made me wish I could have had someone with me as Plus one, especially with the looking of it, I was the only single person/male there under 50, so the rest were married or in relationships, that was just making things worse and I had no clue on what this was indicating which later on would be. But then Dad shouted where are you and I said I'll be out, but then was not too long until Mum shouted for me to come out in 10 minutes or being dragged out, I was really shaking and to be fair the temptation to get the clothes and change was on and off most of the afternoon. But in the end, it was me having to come out, still trembling as I walked to go out, was in no way fucking prepared to have the confidence to speak to my sister let alone others in there. But then Mum moved me along to a seat overlooking the pool and got me a glass of water. 

She asked why am I feeling this way and also that if I leave you'll ruin her big day, even though I've not even made direct eye contact with her let alone spoken to her with that message in my head being argued upon. But Mum left me to drink and I was still trembling and debating whether to leave or not. Since the part of this was to be the case of the drinks and quick break while the start of the reception was going 

A Shakey/ grouped intermission

So this was the case of the main ceremony out of the way, I was shaking as well as my glass of ice cold water but it was going to then make the chance to get up and finally go into the room. My Sister was not there but others were, So I walk my way to the edge of the bar and my dad got me an Orange juice, which these events, those drinks are not going to go very well.  But AS I drank it, the bro of the groom approached me and we chatted about some things. 

• Work
• Chat GPT and other Open AI
• Windows 11 + Android 
• Being an uncle
• Gfuel cans 

My nerves were semi-eased but it was not for long since the weather was getting that bit of clear sky even with that strong galeforce winds.  There was a fair bit of groups around, which for me was a chance to check my phone and check the CCTV while it was So this was when the chance for photos to be taken and I avoided that. Since it was nearly 3:30 and the time for the reception was coming up.  But it was then time to get into the reception. Which was another time for the toilet on the guess to get there or to bail and leave.  But I walked in shaking. 

The Reception: 

So this was going to be the maybe mellow part, but as I got in there, It was going to be the case of everyone walking in and soon with being behind or the tablets in front of them with the bridesmaid and groom and mum, dad, friends of fufu and well best man style.  But My name was there, with grandparents and my grandad's brother's former ex-wife too. But my tummy was not feeling right which means the food will be skipped,  my leg did not stop shaking for most of it and I was worried it will affect the video of the speeches to film. 

The place card for the tablet I got sat on

So this comes to the stage of hearing the speeches, which then leads to the chance of hearing some opinions I've never heard. Such as the chance to be taken down the aisle with hand in, Also the announcement of the kid along the way. 

But then it comes to the case of hearing the Grooms Speech, which to be fair was a heartfelt one, it had its generic tone ins parts of what was repeated but it was the case of also being thanked for being involved in which to be fair the filming was the only involvement and that was just the purchase of Glass and also FCPX which was due to the upgrade of MacOS for it. 

Then it comes to the best Man's speech and the references to the sweaty Fifa goals, (RIP FIFA when EA Sports FC will come in and work's EA rep will talk on it) and the time of how

this came to pass. but for some, it was coming to pass on that. We call clapped and then it was time to get to wait for food. This was me shaking and more shaking to go. But then it was me feeling a bit of a tummy feeling, like butterflies but a much nastier feeling. So the soup was skipped and then the lady next to me was doing small talk. So my nan was hardly eating anything and this in turn could be a bad time for her in the long run of this.

The Table in glass

But it then lead to the waiting for the chicken, which was actually one of those posh ones with no sides like vegetables but it was the little bone sticking out of it. It had a tangy gravy but an onion or chive-style mash which I'll have to imitate for cooking eventually. But the taste was good and not too intense for the tummy. 

The Chicken with Carrot, gravy, Chive mash and Runner beans 

So that was nicely eaten and it was a unique charm to it and to be fair, it really did fill the gap, although I was regretting missing the soup, that orange juice and nerves got the better of me. But then it was to the desert which the waitresses were coming out with them, but I had to send mine back due to the custard on it, since again I did not really have a choice for the menu since I was scared to sort that out months ago. So everyone started to tuck into the desert which meant that last-one-to-eat mentality and some chatter with the staff about picky is what I felt a bit of a vibe of. But then it was a sponge which was ok but felt a semi-bit like a bigger version of a microwaved one. But It was eaten pretty quickly. 

The sponge for dessert 

Then it was more nervous and it was also the time the friends of Dad's across from me were not feeling well either and ended up being taken outside then she puked up, they were late and even run Dad as he walked my sister to the aisle as well. But that was soon to be out of the way and it was also time for grandparents were going to be picked up. So I also walked out of the hotel and made it to get some fresh air. But then as I came back my dad passed and asked what I was doing and then I said I'll make my way back then he said that mum was dropping off grandparents to the van outside. So it was time to leave, it was nearing 6:30pm and since parents were staying over, it was fine for them but with the gap between the Reception then the evening ceremony, it was going to be the tough part to either risk stress or that one mistake from having to drink or even shed a tear from seeing the first dance which I'll talk below on down. 

The time to go. 

So it was then time to wait for the wheelchair and walker with both grandparents on it, then with the help of a chap local to where I live now for £70, it was time to get them strapped in for Na's in the wheelchair and grandad in the front. But then both strapped in and my time to take a seat in the back, which then I had to get out for a short minute bit and said goodbye to my sister and the family, then it was a smooth drive back, over the hill and on the main road,  but then it was listening to the chatter the driver and my grandad was he was talking about me to him (he did not realize I was behind them in the backseat) and also about when my sister was in pantomimes and village plays a year of many time ago. 

As we passed an accident and up the hill, since a car and bike collided on it, but then it was soon time to get out since the chap dropped me at the school,, which in the blue sky, I got out after a car zoomed by, then leading to walk home, just up a road, which that reflecting was to start on what happened today. 

I got home and greeted Rosie, which was then a quick toilet break before getting both the cat and Rosie outside, which the walk started and I ranted to myself about what was to come. As I kept talking, I was starting to slowly lose sight of how things are, and eventually, As I got to the field,, I sort of had an argument with myself that brought up some painful memories which were of a crush with the same name as sister and her now husband from years ago still that what memory could have been]

Things were feeling out of control and real mistakes were happening this was the weekend I let it take over my life, But the wind was evening picking up from that side So after breaking down, it was time to head home at about 7:30pm mark.  

Things get too much but the walking in the evening was nice 

So I walked back and then it was time to just relax by watching some cartoons and also watching some Disney + with some leftover pot noodle couscous with the pickle mayo.  But it was then typing up the post, I was feeling drained. So crashed out at 00:30 and then it was time to catch up with sleep since it was exhausting and my mind felt like it was lost it was going to be the end of simple things and another lesson of having to move on since life needs those lessons to sort out. Plus it was getting time I have to sort out a therapist since the shakes were coming in thick and fast on a daily basis.  Soon that will be sorting its time out. 

Saturday: 

So I was still emotionally drained and to the point, I could not fully wake up until about 11:30am, my mind was scared and it was making me feel empty. But time takes its toll and it was time to walk Rosie. I got a phone call from Mum she said she was dropping flowers off which in itself was going to be a recovery and the stress they had with a fire in the hotel due to some towels that caught alight after being in the tumble. But then I walked Rosie, she was happy but at the same time, I was still scared. 

I had to play at the bottom part of the playpark since there was an easter egg hunt to deal with, So the main field was mostly off limit

Now on the way back, 3 sausage-looking dogs were running on the road since they were let out and started barking at Rosie I had to pick her up and the dogs started to jump up at me and then Rosie was snarling and close to biting my face. The lady apologised and said she did not know the dogs were let out. So we eventually rushed out and then I got back to make lunch before my parents got home about 10 minutes later. 

Once they got back and we greeted and chatted, It was time to drive to both grandparents of my dad's side's graves, one was having to top the water up for the flowers on the grave and then it was time to go to Calstock for the Grandad's fiance's grave to top the flowers up. This was the first time to see the grave since she died the day after I saw her in August 2020. So then it was time to go to the carpark in Calstock which was fully packed but we got out and walked our way to Cotehele, which was quite busy on the path and pretty dry on it. But we then pass some of the gardens and the signs of spring were going were showing for sure. 

The gardens 

As I walked down, a girl from the midlands I've been speaking to was wondering how the vouchers worked from nearly 2 weeks ago, she was happy and then it was to sit by the quay and talk about the wedding again with my parents. The ice cream was a Lemon swirl and Chocolate and it was a nice mix. But I'll try to have sorbets more instead now. 

The Double cone ice creams 

Then it was more reflecting before the walk in the sun home, when the sky was still blue, and the spring was warm, but it was then time to get back to the car. Since it was to reflect on this day and the vibe was still warm for the family of the wedding the day before.  But we then got back and it was time to drive home, the social club was packed and the pub was still packed pretty much. 

Then we got home and it was time to sit outside with more chats in the sun as well as the parts of the leftover wedding cake. Which was nice but rich, the icing was very nice too. I had more slices from this day on than I should but for a bottom-tier (not quality-wise) cake, it was just mmm. 

The slice of chocolate wedding cake

So this comes to the point of trying to get this typed up, I'll be honest and say this takes a lot of time more to do than it seems but it was also the case of the well that was pretty much the last 2 days off I'll have not Mondays and Sundays for a fair while.  But it was a nice curry made for the tea using some Chicken prawn noodles. 

The chicken prawn noodles in a curry with extra rice, crisps and mayo 

Well, that, for now, will be it, this was then to chat and type this up, the next days were going to be tough choices to hear about and a post I'll catch up about the April. But as some people have new beginnings, things of the past are starting to come to an end and I'm starting to remember this quite badly or really learn this rule of unwritten tales of life. 

But for now, take care, my future can get worse but it will start to jump up eventually. 

omracer 

What is going on

 Things I have no fucking idea on what thigns are going on, Its tough to even think whats going on and it was going to cause alot of long days, long nights and stress and shakes.  But i'll even forget how things are and I don't even recollect the day in and day out of this. 

Again no videos was going on and so its time to catch up and see whats going on. Like it was late as it gets and mentally and semi physcially things had taken its toll. But this has also taken bits and pieces of finding out new truths, rushed choices that lead to regrets which i'll find out later on. 

February: 

So unlike last year which was the start of getting to the deep stages which ended me being rushed into mistakes one after another with someone up the midlands way and the fun of valentines mayhem of mistakes. This year was different for sure, ok there is the chats and talking with someone that is nice, sure shes 20, dating a girl and i've spent about £££ on just eat for her already since this year began but when video calling on snap it has had some redeeming feeling with it. Now there is or has bee a repetition of this with someone like last year that was lovely and I helped out a bit and sure skypes when  I tired when she was doing coke and wanted me to give her company for a bit, this was before the move last year. 

But it was also the time the weather was getting semi better with the fact of the bike starting to REALLY fail, this was the start of long runs and peddles cycles. But this was the first time when I  got a review sorted (Still got the video to fucking edit for that). The UGREEN Bike mount 

The Bike Mount 

The Bike 

The phone working 

Sunsets to reflect 

So this makes it fine but it was the start of the issues, the pedal was getting loose and this in turn was gong to cause more hecticness. So it leads a nasty pedal falling out on the end of the regular visit in Luckett. But this was getting up the hill an d still talking to G at that point on feabie too on that hill in the pitch black. 

This also lead to more long days ahead and  the stamina I'll have to start facing is no short of insanity for some people, but that Citybus timetable was really going to have its time to show how my legs and skechers were going to be. Plus Bereal was the way to show this truth. But the rewards were going to be some good due to the date for the fireplace brought forward to that first full week in February. 

The gaze at the moon from the gates 

Looking back from the main road after running on it 

A wet hill after the bus dropping oof 

A spanner and a new working pedal to get things working is the goal here 

The new fireplace 

So that means it was one week later on and it was a time to get the bike tuned again, since the weather was drying up, sure more runs home on the nights which means it was soon to be the final day off in feburary for me. This was windy and was meant to be a video made but that wind was quite hectic and an orienteering about for sure not good either. 

The nights when running home again 

Kit hill from be real 

The night sky when walking rosie in the evening 

The streets glow in lights and dusk

As time was going on, fate was going to go against so much and well its still a blur but it was coming up to a big choice to make and that was soon the end of the independence of the granparents as they were going to go into respite care. For them this was repeating dejavu and to be fair there's no point in objecting since both were starting to need it, ok sure grandad was dreading it from seeing what happened to his best friend up north Devon and like tey have been very good and doing whats right for them is the best way. But it was going to be soon time to learn that while those plans were being prepared, work was going to be the start of a i've started to really throw down. The cycles were getting torelated but mistakes soon to even just go more parts break. But this was going to be the long haul of a long day in the dusk as nights seemed to start to pull out. 

a bereal from inside the bike mount 

The route of taking on the monday 13th 

I would not have been thinking I would be running home on Valentines day for a day which actually was going to be feeding a crush but there sadly were some family events she had to face which is sometimes you need to just take a bit of behind not reaching out so the time to reflect is there. But it meant more running home from work that week and late nights and meals ahead. The dry weather was helping and it was also to make sure the ideas were prepared and shopping chores done. which with activation lock issues lead to food shopping then miles running home. But the secret was out to finally take a shortcut across the canal path and using the track path between the 2 bends and that was alot of time saved, i was going to find that out quicker Than i guessed. 

The dusk on Valentines day

More night running 

The mix of Sweet chilli, bonbon biscuits, rice and even cashew butter 

More running up the hill to home 

Sausagss going with bacon and serial 

More running at night 

The selfie to tesco

The mini shop which includes something soon to finally review 

So it leads to another weekend and that also had to mean visits to sort out. Since soon it was going to be the case oif another sunday working and well this was leading to 2 long visits, one with an ongoing issue with a phone and the other being an issue with mac on something and this was going to be a long day. So it did not help with the weather going to be a wet one. It was and in the end it was also going to be another day of it the monday ahead, there was a family meal with in-laws on that say but that got skipped. This was also the chance to enjoy garlic alloli 

A wet blur on the way home sunday night 

The late tea of potatoes, salad and even ketchup and crisps. 

This was then going to be the case of more waiting for things to go wrong and working to catch up. Like this was also the time to soon start cooking in the air fryer that mum had and it was very close to Pancake day, which of course from the hecticness from last year was on par with  this year, though to not complain about how things are was very much the hidden goal in all of this. But the weather was getting dark but cycling past ponies can give some sense of relaxing part to it that and it was the case of the corndogs i finally got to make. 

The Corndogs, fried seasons chips, garlic alloli and ketchup as well as some of the gyoza kits from a shop a while back

But then it leads to pancake day which to be fair was even more running home in the night. This was the second time and bringing a bag of carrots home i shit you not. But i did mess up and burn the pancakes in the end too since of leftovers and rushed on a gas stove. 

The mini shop from morrisons 

a selfie before the run home 

The pancake poutine and leftovers mum cooked 

The only batch of pancakes with both biscoff spread and chocco nussa

That was nice but I know i overdid the pancakes for that which was a night part but this was the chance of realising this was going to be a case of different times to sort out.  But really it was more time to just keep going as it goes along. PC Builds and RGB were taking its toll. 

Getting RGB to work but the cables use odd connectors 

More running home at night 

The chats were a bit weaker as I was soon to be going for some really busy time. It went on for friday and a visit on a phone setup which then lead to running up a hill in the rain but that was going to lead on to a run it for the bus which was luckily I managed to get it back on.  It did help with not getting too full from a sausage roll that a friend forced me to get for lunch. 

The Sausage Roll 

But then it lead to a night off for the Saturday and this was going to be the case of after Walk up the hill after getting the bus back home. That was going to be more of the chance to finally get a second review sorted for #crimpit. It was nice to make some nice combos with the flatbread and I was even having an extra meal after. 

The front of the box 

Creating the Crimpit 

Toasting the crimpit

The look inside the creation 

But then it was to try to get that post typed up and then also lead to having to go to work to start to pummel and catch up on the jobs, since it was soon to be REALLY alot of things to catchup on that I was falling behind and soon it felt like it woul NOT stop, especially as things were going to be good weather but still delays need to speed up. But this was also the time to finally use and start to prepare things like the purchase of Glass for £135 on ebay earlier in the month, YES Glass is back. 

A late lunch when i got home on that sunday 

Time to setup another glass, 3rd pair in the life of me 

As the final few days of February were coming to pass, it was going toe be more tough says ahead of exercise and distance to go. But it was also to discover a lush ice pop flavour which was going to make things os much mmph. Sour Raspberry and Lime aka Refreshers which are some nice fizzy ish sweets. Plus it was tasty to enjoy some Chicken tikka slices on reduced offer. Plus leftover pancakes mixes 

The mini shop in morrisons for about £5.80 odd 

But then with chats semi there or not, it was time to face this busy scary month and really realise how things are going to go down from here. Plus another scammer on feabie getting their weigh too. Plus this was the time I subbed to 2 onlyfans pages, one of a Scottish blonde cutie which between myself and her has been about 2 heart/like reactions to insta story replies and also a girl i bought a scale for years ago and even she blocked me on one of her insta's (no replies or stories comments). But its also funny i was blocked by someone I crush on and used to feed many a year ago before her 6 year relationship with whoever on her insta for one story reply about her holiday she was on. 

March. 

So we really are going to the fun part of whoops I've got to run to work, since the bus did not appear on the fucking GoCornwall bus app so that meant no idea if i missed it or not, and it was soon to be the also fact of easy jeans were not going to be fitting anymore due to the hole ripped means it was going to be the case of having to use the jumpers as pockets, but that eventually means i can get some new jeans in the month or 2 ahead. But the run was about 1:14or so, even on the main road then to the canal, especially as it was semi dry and also the chance to the slip path by the harvest home to cut down past both lumburn bends which in turn was the key to almost dying or going a longer muddier route. 

The crossing before the main road to run 

Then it was going to be more of the friend popping around, this was then going to lead to have to repeat deja vu  of what happened to me many years ago but more compliant side. But that will be for later me to regret things. But the doughnut and sausage roll were becoming a sight all too well, From the distances i was soon to do, this was going to make things tough. But I'll build up the self control eventually, especially as soon work was going to feel just burningly overwhelming. 

The sausage roll and the oreo doughnut. 

This was also meaning the visits were going and that means distance of running to work and from work, Like this was the start of some serious distances for the commute home.  Like i was trying to catch up with chats too.  But it was soon to be the case of intense long distances. Since Visits were coming up and I had no idea on what I was going to face but it was also that various mix of foods to make or even just cook myself from how late things were going to be. 

The views of the lamerton when running home on a lane nearby 

A run to the main road in the dry sky 

Late lunch of chicken, pretzels, salad and chips tooo 

A Run on a canal path 

Microwaved Curries with rice and special k 

But it was to soon be a case of getting to find out on how my endurance was going to go. One top of some of the events of trying to prepare myself to get videos editing again 

Since the sunday was going to be the case. So it started out to visit granparents which is in the care home. Which was the first time to see them leaving home to get there. Since we got masked up and tested when we got to moorgate, it was sadly too busy to see them due to lunch, so we went to Tesco for lunch.

The view of the moors from the care home 

Then we got to Tesco and i was shaking more than usual, last time I was here things got it problematic , like It was then the full on talk about the wedding and the kid and i was just a bit uneasy to hear this and did not feel it was right, Sure the katsu curry was nice but it just was uneasy to deal with. 

The Katsu Curry with salad, mayo and chips 

Then it was the case of going shopping in Tesco and it was getting uneasy to look at things and the place was busier than usual. but from seeing deals i, the way of life of missing some items I wanted to get since I could not find it in the end. But like  it was coming to the end of this and by 3pm wer were leaving, aftrer mum was talking to an former work colleague of hers too. But like we then get our way to the care home, this was a tough one to deal with. Once the test is done and we parked up. We finally got our way there and it was a tough one to hear, from hearing my grandad actually tear up and it was then there listening to the repeat or not of things go.  So like it ends up the realisation of how together they want to be and both of their health was going. But then it was 2 hours later and we go from there to be able to go home and reflect on this.  

I got home then with the help of Opencore Auxiliary Tools , the Laptop is finally updated from catalina to monterey which means more emojis and quicker rendering times, But this was for the plans in the future, even though there is the issue of FCP not yet being compatible. So that was done before another tea.  

The upgrade to monetery on the laptop

The Roast Pork with Potatoes, Various Veg and mint sauce 

But this coming week was going to be one exhausting one of running, rain, lifts home and the weather was soon to change to something much more intense and well it was going to be the next week that feels the most of the blur of intense visits, both running and cycling. 

So this week started off with a few visits and it was time to cope with the weather to start to turn from dry to wet, which was the key of 3 visits and there was a fourth but it was going to be the case of more to struggle with. But soon skipping one visit to get the train home was going to be. The cycle from the shop to Bere Alston has been one I've used a fair few times. 

The maps of cycling 

Then with no strikes on and a bit of time left, I finished the visit at 18:48 and cycled my wayt to the station, it was dusk and the night was clear sky, the sun was almost in the face a little bit and then it was getting on the Train, the funny story of paying for the ticket but then not even being asked for it was a nice way to get the refund, I was meant to vlog but it was quiet on the train but also the sounds of the train made it hard to vlog. 

The bike parked and waiting for the train to get home 

This then lead to more getting up the hill with the battery life semi left and then a nice leftover meal to catchup with. To be fair this week was feeling the blur even more since the nights were going to be very long for the next week or two. Like little did i know I was even going to be getting late to the point lifts home were close and actually happening 

Jacket Potatoes, chilli, crisps, frosted flakes and even a bit of tartare sauce in there 

It was also the weather changing to the damp and soon to feel absolute monsoon weather, but with the change in the air of things getting to be of being able to take time off in work at a price, it was meaning I needed to keep going and the words of not to burn out was getting told to me a shit ton more, from 17 years olds, parents and customers too even joining in on that.  But this was going to be some night runs ahead.

The moon at night with a selfie 

Chicken tikka pies with frosted flakes, sweet chilli and even curried chips

But this was leading to the 2 long nights. Since the first had to be 2 visits, one was a hacking emergency which in another parallel life, would be where I could have been living and then it was to the hospital of all things to deliver a 3m 8 Pin Lightning Lead . Then the shower lead to the chance to run home in the rah 

Another blur 

Some sausage casserole, Frosted flakes, Tartare sauce and french stick 

But it then lies to the Thursday and habits die hard, as I had to run to work due to the bus being missed yest again, so it was the skechers to really push me up the hill even with rain and sweat soaking the clothes. To prepare me for another normal day of work, with roads just being the way they are, the rain starting to soak the socks inside and well, just a long Thursday as the per norm. 

Another run up the hill 

But then it was a call from the customer i was going to see and turns out they couldn't pick me up which is fair so it was a bus truip to see them and then the plan to crack open a new laptop (Not literally aka i mean set up) and also issues with backups and all. But learning from him a few facrs in life about benefits system, Pot holes are now so full on claims the council won't take anymore on and even other gossip aroumd, but that ended up a 9:30pm getting home after being dropped off by the Co-Op petrol station then a moping walk up the hill. There was a treat at the end of it though, since some bao buns were purchased which I got to have them late at night. 

The late leftover lunch of Stir-fry, Teriyaki boa buns, naan bread, bbq pringles and even sasuage rolls 

But then it was Mar10 and its some gimmicks and POS to build up and the soon time to relax of not far off a first day off in 3 weeks to approach is what I would have said the week before, but 1 week feels longer and tough  to cope with from the situation going on. Plus more brownies from a customer but this chap was soon to make sure I pay the price for the hectic part of my life in bad karma form is what it was going to feel  like on the next monday coming up. 

Brownies as treats 

Happy Mar10 Day 

As it was leading to yet another evening of 2 visits, one for Phone and files to back up and then another for Activation Lock forms to be completed whcih with Apples being the way they are, this was preparing  to be a time stressful and expensive cost to me of time 

Then it was another run across the canal path in black top get some. 

The Late tea to cook when I got hack 

But it was the final day of the weekend of working and low and moral but we carry on with one more day and evening shift which was actually for a voucher top-up to perform and then waiting for a lift in the pissing rain. But £40 E vouchers need to go. And lunch/tea to be eaten.

Fried Chicken, Garlic Alloli, Salad, Bacon crisp and even something hidden under that lot

But then it was the weekend and this was the time of getting 1 day of again, the weather was ok but it was a Roast from Louis's as a late family treat for a reason, especially as it was expecting with the sister and soon it was her asking for favours on my end. The Roast beef was nice even if it was a bit chewy. But then it was nice to catch up with getting this post sorted  But eventually this was to take the care to plan a meal and also the chance to make sure the monday was prepared and trust me this was no way and easy way to cope with the day  was close to facing. 

So that Monday was the start of 3 visits, the rain was coming out and staying out for the on part of the day and trust me this was feeling alot of pain and distance i have yet to have a tste of, which Monday was that day. This was not including a solder job cone wrong that even weeks later as typing is needed to keep my sanity in check. 

The connector i've got to solder on 

I had the first2 visits on the moors done, one brentor and another just down the road. So that was sorted albeit i rushed myself a bit on the second job and that would be making things bad for me later on in the week. But then by about 2pm I finished and cycled back to the shop to prepare things, I got back there about 2:30 and  then things prepared, I cycled as best as I could to conserve battery abd then had to head to the iOutlet for a ipad to sort out on warranty from months ago.  The Roads were wet, and the cycle path was blocked like 2 times and had to divert the bike under it to get past, the winds are busy for sure. 

The path blocked by the fallen trees 

As i pelted my was to estover, RS Components to find copper tape and the soldering wire was first. But the lady in there was semi helpful,  but no luck with paying for this. Then by 4:30 ish it was a quick walk to i/outlet to get it sorted on an iPad Pro 12,9" fault. I then dropped it off and cycled by was on a slip road to get things on the ball, I was 30 minutes later then coined it to get Flight simulator X working on this old PC, like with some FCP Addon for a Go Flight Control Autopilot panel. But then it was nearing the 6:30 mark and i just finished so it was time to pelt it to go to St Beaudox to get the train home. Sadly that was not the case and then it was the time to cycle to the Bridge, memories of going on that bridge to see Bronti and all the soft and slim ladies she was friends with and including a former girl i loved and that part will never come back. 

Across the Bridge in shit rain 

But then it comes to the grind, the soaked wet cycle home and the introduction of more accidental muddy paths it ushes me onto, which I fucking regret and then soaked, clipped o the main road and this muddy way, I got back just about with my life and battery working for like 9:10 pm.

The cycle on the road passing Hatt 

When google maps starts to send directions that are looking chaotic 

I made it back home in about 2 hours 25 minutes 

With that done and exhaustions in, it was time to have a nice carbed meal and the lidl chocolate waffles are still as Moorish and addicting as last year. 

The chicken slice, ham, hash browns and sauces to enjoy at night meal

The it was something or other i ended up going to bed at about 12 to 1am. Little i knew how the rest of that week was going to be long nights and even late enough that being picked up was going to happen. Tueday felt normal since a visit was quickly an then run back to get the bus which was a few minutes late. 

Wednesday came around, But  after the chance to get a CCTV sorted with Hikvision that was connected to a QNAP. But then it was 9:30pm and time to run to Morrisons to pick up some more Alloli as well as other bits like these refresher ice lollies and i would realise those are peng. 

The mini shopping at morrisons 

So I decided to text mum to say I'm on my way home and then she insisted to pick me up, So it was back to months ago of having to wait for a lift home back at the roundabout near where I still feel home. So I waited in the peeing rain and then got the lift back, this was going to the start of a VERY long week from how this was proceeding in one day. 

The selfie in the rain 

Then after hearing chatter, I got home for a late leftover tea and then it was to finally get a tea and this weas also the time to enjoy some of the seaweed that i bought a while back from tesco. But it is so nice to enjoy the nori sheets. 

The leftover chicken selects, the seaweed sheets and even chicken teriyaki 

But then it was just crashing out for the most part and it was soon to be even a call with someone but thios was a fair bit of time away from how things are. But it was another day of work and soon to be more of the running around.  This was the case for the  next day of a very long run in the night, and this was in the FOG of all thing. But the road to gulworthy is always one to get used to, though soon would be in the dusk and not the dark. 

The dark run to get with cars passing 

I eventually get home but there was a chance of seeing a deal from  the lovely folks at co-op and £1.25 for suger free sprite is a demon of an idea, but 2 bottles and also fruit cocktail to keep my health up from the long nights ahead is important too. 

The Bottles of the sprite 

But then it was to have a very semi light meal from the long day and the instant noodles were a good start for sure, But this was going to be a repeated habit from how things were going to end up. 

The instant noodles, ham,, garlic alloli and even cereal with salad 

So this is where it leads to exhausting times and well it was no exception. So we continue on to the weekend nearly and the Friday was 3 Visits in one night, i literally tell you. But this starts with the friend having to get me food as the insisting to eating which I know the tummy will be hitting me from that Bacon and sausage bap. This was also chatting to a girl on Kik that was from Norway but lives in Scotland, I've noticed a lot of cute girls in the north and Scotland for sure recently, heck I've even joined 2 girls OF's from up north when  its like £7 for 2 subs on there with promo. 

the bacon and sausage bap 

Then it lead to the first visit which was late due to a customer coming in last minute and then it was the key of getting to visit this lady which then was having to setup the internet connection/ TV and even the phone with the digital voice. 

Eventually that was done then it was a run to the middle of the moors to get things carried on and get a airband router working after a reset and power cut. Linksys routers I tell you are a nightmare, at least Airband emailed the username and password. But that was done and a nice ride to the next customer before the person I saw on Thursday, I went to on Friday and finished the setup on that week aka the day before. But then it was time to Run my way in the misty rain. 

The Sandwich, pasty and seaweed thins 

Then it was the saturday which I had to then get a lift in with the car and the bike due to a visit in the evening and this was going to be the 3 weeks since i Last paid in and did the end of day totals as out per usual. But, instead was going to the nice part of actually taking it home with me aka the till then having to sort it the day after. But I was getting home about about 9:30 to 10pm. This was not too bad to see
the old shows and things in cd. 

The sefle before leaving on saturday night 

Then it was the cycle home which allowed me some exercise to get home and also safe the arguments of the we didn't get chance to cash in quickly. Or so i thought.....

Since I ended up purchasing the Kingston NV2 which was for the maibenben laptop which i ended up letting it clone overnight. Which if i get chance to, means I can play games a bit better. For the £50 pricing from work, its actually decent for 1TB but the laptop is still PCIe Gen 2. 

The Kingston 

The Sasuasges, Chicken  bits, salad and frosted flakes 

Then it leads to the Sunday which was to catch up om things but it ended up actually being a day out to bude. So we got up around about the 9:30am mark. But after some bits to sort, it was time we all packed up and we then went in the car to make our way to bude. Which the weather was nice and we eventually got there about 12 or so. With the chance to park near the library and also the wind was going pretty much at it. 

But then we walked our way onto the beach and it was windy, but the sand was nice of the reminders of the time i did it years from Holidays in the past . Like the views were there and the waves were in though in the small ways.  

The Waves out to sea

The beach just further up and even where the fibre cables from various pipes are hidden here 

The passing of the sea pool at bude

We then walked to find lunch and it was down the street to then find the park with the tree. There weas a pasty place outside there which we walked into, the pasties looked nice but since there was no chicken one and the lamb and mint was out, it was time to go for a vegetable one. But for £3.50 and it was a huge one, stacked with veg and then a Fanta lilt to go with it. 

The Lilt and pasty. 

Then it was reflecting while eating it and sure it was listening to the sounds and scrapes of it all and really for a first day out nearly this year, well first in 2 to a beach it was something. Then we walked around to the various shops that were open, from some wooden craft and fairtrade cloth shop to even one of those mixed department stores. But it ended up going to the point  of there was this sweet shop and that meant seeing American imported drinks and snacks and well it was time to splurge, ok i mean purchasing a tub of Kool Aid Blue raspberry power for £6.99 which compared to a Gfuel tub is a massive bargain saving, It was not until a week late I've decided to drink some. 

But then more walking and we made our way to past the car and exploring the quay by the canal which we wanted to go toilet and then a donut break, the wind was stronger and the clouds were coming in. The donuts were a nice vanilla tang to them and not much of a tangy funfair taste like the ones from goose fair. 

The canal and the carriages on the other side 

The canal looking towards the see 

The donuts from the takeaway shack and fanta

But then was relaxed and listened to the surroundings and chatter while eating and sipping before it was a drive back home,  but before that we drove past BM and have a look in there always the various drinks and snacks to pick up while. But it was the key to find some incubators for seeds and with lidl opposite, I rushed over there to have a look and it was some there so rushed back and shortly after, we got the last 2. 

Then it was a soaking wet drive back home, passing in the rain of the red crossing and also we passed by launceston to be able to look at some cars since dad was looking to replace the car since of various issues which was purchased like 2 years ago or not even that. I played Mini metro in the car. 

The wait in the car while playing 

Then we got home in the dark ish, but it was nice to finally semi relax actually not, but it was to finally get the chance to cash out later on for the shop. But it was the time to get a late tea cooked since my sister called. But i ended up making a katsu curry rice mixed and using the rice pudding rice was good too. 

The sunday meal of Katsu curry paella rice, Crisps, mayo and ketchup 

But then it was 3 weeks worth of accounting time to sort out overnight since it was overdue and alot of money almost like poof in the air from mistakes like RTX 3090 cards to even issues of other natures and stock to get in. 

Money counted and spreadsheets done 

But then it lead to another wet week and things were going to be alot of long days ahead, but we first turn to the fact it was back to another visit near me, which I started out catching up with going to the regular customers after a few weeks but from Printers not working to seeing a pool with a treadmill in it,   But I finally got back about the 7:30 ish mark. I had to finally cut toenails which was overdue. 

The Toenails to clip 

 Then it was another late meal of a microwaved curry, Monster munch from the BM shop day before and even mayo and some olive bread that was cooked in the oven. 

The beef curry, the rice, and also hash browns too 

So then it was another week, things to fix and a blur of visits and actually the Tuesday was one night i did not work which i would soon regret, since of the part of that, I had to visit the granparents place to clean up and pick up some bits since its been over 4 weeks since being in the care home and to be fair it has felt like a empty peace which in me was going to be able for parent to have time off but for me it was alot of work to be had and running around for visits. But as things go on, the time to change, since Granparents were going to move to a new home together in a double room on the Thursday. But then it was a nice mini tea is on that day. 

The beef, chicken with seasoning, salad and chips 

Wedneday was a final saga of a few visits i had to sort out, which was a run down to where i lived many years ago to a estate there, which was for apple id issues, but that was close to getting some shopping but I was under the time to get a bus so another bus home, which is a change from what it normally has been for me the past few weeks, but still depressing walking up the hill but it was the first time in soon to be daylight I would be. But with having to deal with stress non stop is still gong for it

The hill after getting the bus back from Tavi

So it goes to show how it was going to be and another thursday visit was meant to be a PC build but got cancelled and a printer issue took its place, but warranty aside, It was then that time to run again,  this time was the run on the Canal path and it was BOGGY which was a dam shame too on that but then  more late lunches and typing this post up too. which lead to seeing the pets crash out in the night and more microwave dish meals to be had. Especially now the granparents are together, things should be easier for a while but there is a good sign they might be back home with care, which my future might be helped with that if not then i get the importance and means I have to work harder and ignore this burnout i'm getting like eveningiggggggg like this when typing at night is tough. 

The late night meal of Chicken, Satay sauce, bread, crisps, salad and pickle

Going to bed selfie with the Dog and cat crashed out in the warmth of the fireplace 

But it was nearing the weekend and My throat was starting to hurt a fair bit  which means, a cold was coming on..... Hot food was going to help sort part of that, Vitamin C tablets were going to be consumed and I still wanted this post to be sorted out. But the friday was luckily a visit nearby to drop a battery off then it was for a mini shop in tesco with mum before a ride home, which felt like a very quiet week compared to whats to come. 

The Chicken wings, shredded chicken, skinned potatoes and salad to go with the salted chip sticks and ketchup

So it then came into the Saturday and it was going to be another day, This time it was getting to the point opf running to the bus which then it makes let me get the bus. But it was also the time to actually get another busy day of work done, its a blur of what happened but i Know i could actually cash up at the end of that week, then just have that 10 minutes spare to get the bus home . Which i will shit you not, I was the ONLY one on that bus home, but then mum called since they were in front  of me. So i rushed and got off by the cornish then ran up the hill, so I was then not the last one on that bus. Then it was able we had a nice fakeaway since we could not be asked to order food. 

The fakeaway of Saturday night 

Tjen it was another sunday and this was for me to actually finally relax  and this cold was getting annoying, But like i took it easy and hardly left the house at all.  With a nice roast, flirsting on snap with this new girl from Liverpool whos wanting to be fed and gain, but to be fair this actually feels like a regret. I'll find that out in the week. 

The roast pork with potatoes and peas

Ham fajita wraps with salad

As me and becky were texting away, it was more or less going to be feeling the same of the week, but the tides will turn as work will be back to normal except its not, since there was a hand at play, roadworks means diversions and also more visits but not the regulars as normal, it was going to be longer ones. But once 2 were done near brentor, it was a cycle back to work in the sunny weather to finally have a look for this copper tape, which has needed for a solder job. But that was then a call to the company to then get an email on response. 

The be real when cycling 

another selfie when coming back from looking of copper tape

But then it will goes to checking on other parts but then it was the cycle home after a visit in the evening, wich then it was to go back via the Railway line near route. Which was then going into the dark and dusk. 

A dark selfie 

Then it was already one late visit out of a few in later this week, with now the chats with becky coming in and as these go it means bad habits are going to be the case gain, but this was when cashapp was going to be a fucking pain in the ass. Like after singing up it refunds the payment for my procection, which i get but it makes bonding trickier, like thats why i said to peach i don't use it. 

A late night leftover tea with salad cream and crisps

Then it was the start of the week's hectic side and Tuesday i could NOT catch a break and this was going to be the consequence of this, but it ended up having to visit one customer up the hill which then lead to a first run bakc home while the Gulworthy road was closed. Which It was supposed to be quieter but i'm not kidding, it was more cars than I normally deal with when running home. But my ankle semi slipped but I kept going. 

The wet road home with surfacing yet to finish 

The leftover meal with beef crisps, bread and even some sasuages as well

Then it leads to a wednesday and this was going to be another long day, since with being lifted in due to mum wanting to pick up a dress, it was getting to the long haul. This was another longer one and since parents had an outing n that day, it ended up getting that point of a rushed way home so, it was an omelette to make once i got home. Even with Becky texting me on snap. Plus it was a visit to a customer I fell out which from perspective was a petty reason. The cold was starting to really go away and ease off the strredd

A blurred run in the dark 

The katsu curry pancake omelette, ham and even snack a jacks

Then it leads to be another day and more of a running long day, work itself was fine with catching up on jobs i've got to sort and stock bits and pieces but this was also the time I was on the way home and having use PP for more bad mistakes which having to argue that its not working out within like 3 days of speaking and both my an her way of bonding did not work. So maybe its not meant to be. But the rain was getting tough and means it was a very wet path on the way home. Especially the hills by lumburn.

The rivver on the paths near the lumburn bends 

But then i got home and there maybe were some texts, like i did have a K message me with her having pneumonia and other parts but I did cheer her up. But it was a nice plate of Spanish chicken  food to enjoy. 

Spanish chicken, white cookie, ham, chocco nussa and even crisps 

Then it leads to another Friday and with things to do with the friend helping out and jobs what were still meant to be dealing with which actually he forced hands to give me a sausage bacon bap but the lucky would have it to not have to run home that night and in terms give the chance to get a lift home with mum since it was meant to be bus ride but a customer literally. 

Overdue posters to put up 

A sausage and bacon bap while getting one job done 

Then it was a visit for a CAT box what was confirmed to be faulty and lead to one of the earliest nights home in WEEKS like it was not going to be like that anytime soon after my feelings were, especially now the hour has been forward for 1 whole week at that time, things were brighter but also longer in it time. But it was one more meal and some chatting to Becky still as well. Plus getting to know this girl from brum thats a beauty therapist and she does look lovely, int was the next month where if a bond expands, it does. 

And So we leave it as that, I'm not even sure where things will lead but April will test my skills of stamina, wording and even make sure to not cripple myself from the wedding and circumstances that will bring, I did email the venue about plans so i can go and change if things got too much for me so that will be planned and now FCP is purchased from weeks ago, the editing will be able to complete in a better way. 

Time will tell but for now we can just stay safe 

omracer